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Zello . . .. . Im Baaaaaaaack

2007-03-23T21:37:00.000-07:00

Soooo zello everyone I know i havent written in a really long time but once again I lost my username and password and my life has been upside down so I havent had a chance to worry bout my blog but anyways Ill give you a very very brief recap of wats happened since I last wrote. Well first I moved outta my parents house into a turnabout home its a program through the boys and girls club in Victoria which was by Tillicum Mall and I lived there from thanksgiving weekend in October till between the middle and end of november when i was kicked out, then i lived with some friends couch surfing basically with my best friend who was also without a home then we went to a youth shelter in Victoria,a week I was booted out as is procedure there then I stayed at a friends house for a night then I stayed with my boyfriend of the time for a week till I went back to the youth shelter and then I stayed there for a month waiting for a foster home to become available. Then I moved into a foster home by Tilicum mall but only temporarily for I was in a temporary foster care agreement my parents signed after two months they were gunna send me home to my parents whether they or I wanted me back at that time but i actually went home after 5 weeks because I got very sick and my foster parents didnt deal with sickness like normal caring people did they instead acted like I pretended to be sick when i definetly wassnt pretending as my doctor handed out antibiotics to me and they told me to get goin get to school resting isnt the answer so my parents ended the agreement and once again I was back in this place I hate, back to fighting, conflict, screaming and yelling everyday, back to hoping one day really really soon I will be outta this place not livin with these people once again but instead be livin somewhere I can finally find hapiness and enjoyment and maybe even a sense of peace once again. Also my schooling has taken a change of senary as well I stopped attending my classes at Stellys in November, dropped out of Stellys in January officially and started at a new school I love, SJ Willis Alternative Education in Victoria. A longer commute now that I once again live in Sidney but for this school I dont mind the sacrifice of sleep to get up early for the long commut. Also I have been sick since I came back to my parents in Feburary and am finally able to return to school this Monday. YAAAH!! I cant wait I miss my school and everyone there so so much. Anyways thats all for now, cya

Zello

2006-09-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

So yea srry havent really been rememberin to update this thing srry, but anyways so planning 10 is like the most borin course ever but I guess i have to get through it but im gettin some help wit that and so far science is actually okay even though we're doin biology right now and thats never been a favourite of mine but its been fun so far, and math is math normally i enjoy it and all but i dont know so far its not the greatest but then agin its only been like 2 weeks so I'll see wat next week brings and hope for the best and luckily the field there really is great for suntaning in fourth blk but i was supposed to visit parklands at the end of 4th blk on friday which i didnt make and am very srry about but i think im gunna visit parklands either monday or friday this week depending on my work load and schedule so ppl @ parklnds u will either see me on monday or friday @ the end of blk 4 outside Mr.Fitz's room waitin for the little bro to get outta socials and surprise him so yea anyways hope evryone had a way better weekend then i did which wouldnt be hard to accomplish and i hope everyone has a good week and i'll keep u guys updated so yea ttyl

So Far

2006-09-08T13:54:00.000-07:00

Ya so far schools pretty good my friend Amber and Sean both just got put in my Planning 10 class blk 1 and my T.A gives us food in the morning so far today one kid brought cookies and the T.As assiatant brought banana bread, so thats cool. Also it turns out a friend o mine Kurtis is in my math 10 class blk 2 and science 10 blk 3 just really isnt that bad the class has a couple funny class clowns so so far its good and its awesome having blk 4 for a spare cause on fridays I can be home before Kyle even gets off school and on other days same thing but usually I just go suntan in the field and talk to a couple of my friends who are in a woood class its sumthin like carpentry and joinery or sumthin cause they work outside by the portables kinda on a corner of the field so yah sp far its pretty cool, but I'll keep you guys posted cya

School

2006-09-06T21:50:00.000-07:00

So today was the first full day of classes and me getting up at 5:45 means I was exhausted my first class of the day is planning 10 with Ms.mORRIS WHO WAS AT pARKLAND LAST Year and in that class there are 30 students and 4 of them are guys its pretty funny, maths okay so far cause we have a cool sub and science we have a test tomorrow its retarded but wateve I got to spend my blk4 on the field tanning with a friend while watching the wood class work on their projects outside which a couple of my friends are in, so ya today was an okay day and I think I'm going to like Stelly's but I'll keep ya guys posted, Cya

Hey

2006-09-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

So I know i havent posted in a while i just found my username and password so ya . . . . anyways I'm goin to Stelly's now and i have three counsellors and i hate psychatrists, but wateves i have to put up wit them. Anyways I gunna go but I'll post more regularily I hope.

I'm leavin on a jet plane . . . . . .

2006-07-05T03:13:00.000-07:00

So its 3:oo am and I have to get up in 41/2 hours then at 9 I will be at the airport and leaving on a plane at 11 and then off to Calgary. Where I will get to see all my relatives who I haven't seen since I was about 8 or 9 years old. I'm really excited to see everyone but also really sad to be leaving all my friends behind even though I'm only going for 8 days. But after I get back I'm here for the whole next day then I'm off for another week at teen camp @ Nanoose Bay. Then when I get back from all that I will probably get a job. Wow, my summers seems pretty filled up but I hope I can manage to squeeze in a ton of time with all my friends. So everyone email me lots to keep in touch through my busy schedule and I will try to check my emails as often as possible. Love you all tons. Cya soon.

I Passed

2006-06-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

So I have officially passed all my courses. Maybe not with the best marks but still passes which is good enough for me. I got a C- in Spanish, a C+ in Mechanics and I believe a B in Social Studies. Woot Woot. I am so happy about that. Also on the 5th of July which is coming uup soon I will be going to Calagary to visit all my relatives until the 13th. Then I will leave again for teen camp on the 15th and return on the 22nd. But before I go on Canada Day I will be in the parade with the Panorama float and helping Panorama with there stuff at the park afterwards it should be a lot of fun. So all of my friends should get a hold of me to hang out before I go and I should be at youth friday if all goes as planned. Anyways I'm gunna go now so cya.

P.S My boyfriend and I broke up last week for those of you who dont know.

Schools Out

2006-06-20T22:34:00.000-07:00

So schools basically done now, just those exams left. I'm just happy I get my exams over quickly there in the first two days of exams then I get to chillax. I'll just miss seeing all the people I normally only see at school, I'm gunna miss some of those kids. Anyways I guess I should go study(ya right) seeing as how I am technically failing one of my classes. So cya.

Review

2006-06-09T15:23:00.000-07:00

So there is like 8 school days left and I'm just passing Mechanics, I have an 83% in Socials and I have an F with 44% in Spanish. I don't know how I do it the classes that are supposed to be easy I suck at and the classes that are supposed to be hard are somewhat easy and a lot easier than the supposed easy classes. Anyways so this weekend my parents are making my family go to this Depression seminar at our church ( doesn't that sound like a great way to spend my Friday night and all day Saturday). Also one of my friends got kicked out of their house( how retarded is that) and my boyfriend is in Vancouver for the whole weekend he won't be back till something like 6:30 SUnday night so I can't hang out with him. This weekend so far is looking just a little dreary but whatever I'm sure somehow it will turn into a great weekend. I just have to wait and see. Anyways cya.

Happy

2006-06-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

You know what my boyfriend is actually a great guy. Life today took quite a turn up as a matter of fact. Not just with my boyfriend but also with a good friend I was mad at and a friend I haven't talk to in a really long while. So anyways I got to go just thought I'd give u a quick update. P.S Love you Sarah

Quick Summary Of My Life Right Now

2006-06-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

So here's a quick summary of me:
My boyfriends super shy and won't hang out with me outside of school, I have an I in one class, a just passing in another and another that I could very possibly end up failing in the next two weeks, I'm still trying to get permanent marker off me that my friend drew on me and my favourite jeans before she ditched me at like two a.m in the morning, I haven't finished my homework because it involves drawing and I suck at drawing, I keep having to defend my boyfriend against my friends when they make fun of him and tell me I should dump him when I don't want to but just might because I cant be the only trying to make our relationship work if he doesn't try, it takes two to make it work, anyways what else is going on in my life well, I'm absolutly exhausted and no amount of sleep can help me, my teeth hurt so much i can barely eat - stupid special lemonade, I'm upset with a few friends, severly pissed off at one and on the verge of giving up on my boyfriend which I truly don't want to happen cause he is a really good guy and quite funny once you can get him to talk. Well theres a quick summary of whats going on with me so ya, um . . . . oh right and my psychologist who I have to see because I'm depressed is sending a counsellor into my home to work with the whole family, Woot Woot (ya right) anyways, Cya

Silence

2006-04-01T16:13:00.000-08:00

Do you ever notice how everytime there is silence even for just one second someone will mention it just to fill up the silence? My quetion to you is why? Why is silence so hard for people to deal with? Is it because it gives us time to truly think about how are lives are going or what we're doing? Or does it give us time to think about all the stufff we regret not doing or doing? Maybe people dont like silence because even a second of it gives us a second to think about the people we've become or maybe that second we realize is a second of our lives wasted when we could have been doing something wothwhile and meaningful. But what was the last thing you actually did in your life that was worthwhile or meaningful? If you can't think of anything maybe its because you forget that somethings that seem like everyday things to you or something really small that you can barely remember like maybe you gave a smile to someone when you walking down the street today or you said hello to someone in the halls today you dont normally say hello to. These things may not seem meaningful or worthwhile to you but to someone else that could of brightened there bad day or just made a huge world of difference that you may never know about but without it who knows how that other persons day could have turned out. Somethings may not be huge to you but they are to others so keep smile cause you never know whos day you've just brighten.

Hey

2006-03-08T19:55:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to say hey. I'm not really used to writing a blog but i thought I would give it a try anyways. One phrase that has new meaning to me lately and you might like is "Dont frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile."